(Well, since we're 6 weeks into the wait for TA and there is nothing else to say-except that we're still waiting- I thought I'd try to post something interesting.)
Why did we choose the name Esther?
Well, first off, it wasn't on the top of my list. Earlier this year when we had decided to pursue her adoption, it was right after we had found out we couldn't adopt a little girl we had fallen in love with and were searching for. We had met this little girl when we were in China and she was absolutely beautiful. She was the inspiration for us adopting a special needs child from China. The foster home she lived in called her "Esther." When we found out we couldn't adopt her, we were devastated, but happy she would have a family. Things may not always work out the way you think they will. I just KNEW we would adopt this little girl (Esther #1 as I called her) and when we couldn't.. it threw me for a loop. But.. things may not work out, because there is a reason behind it. Obviousley, God had intended for this little girl to have her own family, because our Esther was meant for us.
When we found our Esther, she was nicknamed "Brittany" by our adoption agency. We weren't too crazy about that name, and it didn't really fit with our names. (It kinda rhymes-Sera, Elena, Kayla, Emma, etc) When we were waiting to see if we would be approved by China, my mom told me she wanted to name her Esther. I was thinking no way! Number 1, I was still getting over the fact we couldn't adopt Esther #1. Number 2, it would be too confusing for her to be named Esther, after the little girl we wanted to adopt and couldn't. Number 3, it didn't really work well with our names. I wanted to call her Eden, as it kinda went with Emma and Ian. (Mom wasn't too crazy about that one!) But, she is the MOTHER and was the one to make the executive decision. So Esther it was.
Mom chose the middle name "Joy" for her, since it goes with "Grace" (Emma's middle name) and she would be a joy to us. I did like Joy and thought it was very appropriate for her. I still wasn't crazy about the name and told Mom I would call her Joy.. or come up with some kind of nickname for her!
After we got our approval from the agency, we found out her Chinese Name. It is Shen, Xiao Tian. "Shen" is her last name and all of the children from this orphanage have this last name, after Shenzhen CWI. "Xiao Tian" meant "understanding the sky." When I saw this.. the red threads were swirling!! Emma's Chinese Name, "Xi Yun Na" means "slender and graceful CLOUD", which goes with sky! Also, it jumped out at me that Esther #1 had "Shen" and "Tian" in her Chinese name too. I thought that was interesting.
But back in August while we were on vacation, I was browsing through some shop's in Pennsylvania with my aunt, cousin and Emma. We noticed they had those little plaque's with names and their meanings, so we started looking through them. My aunt was looking for her boys' names, and I was looking for my siblings. I found Emma's, but didn't think I would find Esther's. At first I didn't. My aunt kept looking and actually found one for Esther. She handed it to me and as I read it, I couldn't believe what I was reading. It said, "Esther: meaning star." Star.. goes with sky! Another red thread!! I knew then that her name was definitely Esther, and I couldn't imagine her being any other name.
She is Esther, and everyone know's her by that. If she doesn't like her name, she can change it sometime in the future. The orphanage calls her by her chinese name "Tian" so we can call her that too. (Goes with IAN)
I used to think our Esther would feel sad at the fact she was named after Esther #1 and that we couldn't adopt her, but she won't because I think of our Esther being named after Esther #1 because she (Esther #1) was the one who inspired us to adopt a special needs child. (See.. it gets confusing after awhile!)
So that's how we chose Esther's name. And.. if ever there is a little brother added to the family (which I sure hope will happen) I have already been kicking around the name "Asher." Which ironically would be after a little boy that we met nicknamed Asher at the foster home in China. He was Esther #1's best friend. These two were the ones who inspired us to adopt. Little Asher is missing three fingers on one of his hands, but when I met him.. I did not even notice he was missing those fingers. He was the funniest, happiest little guy I've ever seen and wasn't bothered by the fact he was missing fingers. He got along fine without them. I just looked up the name Asher on one of those baby name meaning site's and it means: fortunate, blessed, lucky, happy. Hmmmmm.........